BACK AT IT

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Ok so. Admittedly, I left this for a while. Mainly because I hit a wall and had no idea what I was doing. I had two ideas that I wanted to present. The first being a criticism on how the act of listening to albums is not as popular as it once was. And the fact that I'm feeling lost with where I'm at in my life. The idea of having a concept EP where you had to skip songs to get the full picture seemed to be too confusing. So I left it and didn't really develop it.

Now after having some advice today, I've decided on what I'm going to do. It will still be a concept EP, but i will be dropping the idea of criticizing how music is currently being consumed. the songs will still be about feeling lost in life, however, the EP will also touch on how this can happen at any stage in someones life.

These ideas come from me personally feeling rather lost in life especially with the end of university round the corner. I want to become a successful musician but over the past few years, having worked as a bartender, taking up cocktail making and going to gigs in small venues, I found that the idea of opening a bar/music venue is something that I am now interested in doing. However, I simply don't know if I have the expertise to pull something off and whether or not I want to do both or focus on one career path. Being slightly in debt also doesn't help. Because of this I'm moving back home with my mum for maybe a year or two in order to work and earn some money to move back out but it feels as if I have in some way failed in being an independent person. Hence why I feel lost.

Added to this, I've been looking up to my dad more now and not, at 51, he's recently separated and has now moved into his own place. But the main thing is that, he has also been travelling to India a lot as he wants to start his own eco-friendly fish farming company. My father studied Aquaculture when he was in university (my age) and only now, 30 years later is he doing what he studied and feels passionate about. From a rather big hit in his life, he is now doing so much more and in my eyes is the happiest I have ever seen him. This showed me that no matter where you are, it's never too late to really take a step back, take a breather and take another shot at life.

So. In order to convey all this. A 4, (perhaps 5), track EP will be recorded, but, upon further advice, I have been told to try and add something else to convey the ideas of feeling lost and looking up to my fathers life. I have decided that for every song written, I will draw a picture that portrays these ideas. Over the Christmas period I'll be home in Stirling and I will take pictures of the area that in my mind capture these feelings and then draw them out. An idea I'm toying with is to do a time lapse of me drawing these pictures so the audience can see them as they develop thus conveying the idea of a journey and how it takes time for important parts in your life to develop and occur.

So that it where I'm at at the moment. And I know I'm essentially behind but now that I know what I'm going to do I feel good about where this is going and how the end result will look.